#Blessed

So happy and thankful right now. But I guess I'll have to be happy for myself.. About 30mins ago I got the call that I've been waiting for, for weeks! I got the Job at Radio Shack but it was a long process that I had to go thru first before being able to start working. That's what the call was about ^_^ I start working on Thursday and I'm so excited, but more relieved then anything. This is the break that I've been needing/wanting. This is the something new that I was talking about. *sighs* I'm proud of myself. I honestly never give myself enough credit. I knew that once I started being true to myself that things would all fall into place. I'm so grateful and thankful for everything that's going on in my life right now. Momma always said that trouble don't last always and she was right. Now I gotta go tell my friends so they can be extra happy with me :) Swear ill be the best Radio Shack employee ever. Haha :)

A lot on my mind

As a young woman you want security in your relationship. You want to know how much your man loves you in detail. I always feel defeated when i ask the question Why and or how much do you love me? I don't want to have to ask thousands of questions after that simple question :-/ and i feel like i constantly do. It's not that i don't believe the love that he has for me but I want to know. When I love, I love hard. I always make sure that he's aware of how i feel when I'm feeling any type of way. It relieves all doubt even if there isn't any. Maybe it's just a woman type of thing.. We want to spoil our men and let them know that "Hey, you're the one for me and I'll love you through anything, always and forever". All the time. Yes, All the time. It should be second nature. It's one thing to know and another to want to hear reasons why. I can recall being in relationship where I didn't understand what love was.. I couldn't answer the question "Why do you love me?" without mentioning things that didn't matter to him at all. What his interest were, what he aspired to be in life and things of that nature. Not because I didn't care but I just wasn't in the mindset to remember those things. Now that I have a genuine love I know just about all that I need to know about you. I love you. You are my heart. I've never had a love like the love you give me and it is in it's purist form. I just want what I give in return. I want it to happen willingly, Because you want to express why it is that you love me. I smile and get all extra bubbly inside when I think of you. And that's it! You know where your heart is when your mind wonders. Not a day goes by that I'm not thinking of you. I can honestly say that I know your heart. I know you love me with everything that you have. I don't doubt that. I just need to know why without me having to ask..

Luam Ne-Yo Submission

Love this vid. :)

Hiyah!

Hey anons (The random ppl reading my blog) :)
I'm sitting Indian style on my bed with the laptop my lap of course, eating white cheddar pop corn.. The death of braces -_- But that's not what I'm here to talk about. I just came back from a pretty awesome vacation and I'm excited! Wanna know why? Because if it's in God's will I'll be working at Radio Shack! :D Now before I went on vacation, I had an interview on a Wednesday and my vacay started on Friday.. I was a little sceptical about the interview because The guy was like "Why should I pick you out of the other 50 people that I've interviewed today"? I said something like; because I'm dedicated, trust worthy, responsible and I simply get the job done and I staired him dead in his eyes as he smiled and said I really think I'm the best girl for this job, I wont disappoint you. sn: He was weird and African and extra excited and extra weird but the interview was fun nonetheless lol. He shook my hand and told me that I'd be receiving a call on Friday for further information on the status of my employment. The same Friday i boarded the Amtrak train at 10:30ish lol I got the call but it was a missed call -_-. So I checked my voicemail and it was 1 new message but i couldn't hear it because i was in a bad signal area ;-( I heard bits and pieces of the message but i didn't understand what it was saying. I was on a verge of having a temper tantrum because i just couldn't lose this opportunity. Somehow the message was deleted *I was finished* I instantly came to the conclusion that I passed the first interview. But I didn't know who to call? I called Larry the manager of the Radio Shack in Forest ville but he was switched to a different store. I received the number to the store that he was at and he told me that i passed the interview and that i was to call the radio shack at Penn Station.. At this point i was like What The Heck! They were giving me the run around lol, I'm like Lord please provide me with this opportunity because you know what i need. So I call and ask for "Tony the manager" and I explain to him that I'm on the Amtrak train on my way out of town for a so called "Family emergency" and he tells me to take the time that i need and call him when I get back.


One week goes by..

I call scared that someone else who was available took my spot but those worries quickly came to an end :) All i need now is a background check and the job is mine <3 I'm so blessed and highly favored. All thanks goes to the man above.

I'm excited because this is the break I've been needing a JOB.

:)

on the Amtrak Train home.

On my way back home from vacation. 7 days of stress relief and FUN. Had a blast with one missing piece to the puzzle tho. Our time will come. :) I love you.

I LOVE & Miss YOU! YES YOU!

Britney Spears - Till The World Ends

This video gets me so hype! I jump up and down and head bang.. lol I adore Britney <3

....it is embedded in me to always try to make every situation better. Both helpful and harmful....:):(

Pondering..

Watching Toy Story 3 feeling some type of way.. :( I always think what if..

my heart's beating fast.

Lawd hammercy..

No matter what I do, I ALWAYS find you (or run into you).. LOL it's crazy because I'm just browsing tumblr and there you are.. The name seems familiar because You Use The SAME Name for EVERYTHING LOL and i'm like *hovers my mouse over your name and clicks* and BAM! It never fails.. Good to see that you're doing okay :) I could use a good laugh every now and again. I didnt follow tho.. Maybe in the near future.

God, I just broke down again.

I'm good now.. Being by myself isn't bad, summertime is around the corner and I can focus on building myself up. I've realized that I've tried to bulid too many people up and I'm worthy of those things myself. ;) sometimes you gotta smile to keep from crying. But I'm a water bag boo hoo hooooo. But Gods got my back. Blessed and favored.

These quotes have so much to do with my life right now.

"Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do."


- Pope John XXIII


"I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustration were actually laying
the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy.People who fail to achieve their goals usually get stopped by frustration. They allow frustration to keep them from taking the necessary actions that would support them in achieving their desire. You get through this roadblock by plowing through frustration, taking each setback as feedback you can learn from, and pushing ahead. I doubt you'll find many successful people who have not experienced this. All successful people learn that success is buried on the other side of frustration."


- Tony Robbins


"The most sacred place dwells within our heart, where dreams are born and secrets
sleep, a mystical refuge of darkness and light, fear and conquest, adventure and
discovery, challenge and transformation. Our heart speaks for our soul every moment
while we are alive. Listen... as the whispering beat repeats: be...gin, be...gin,
be...gin. It's really that simple. Just begin... again."

- Royce Addington