What to do, what to do? I'm really feeling some type of way about something. I can't get it out of my mind. Its pretty hard to move on when things are unfinished but I guess finished. Its really irritable. I just wanna get out of here!!!
Then my Job was so stressful the last past week, mainly because of the people that I work with.. Lazy, complaining ALL the time smh and just down right GHETTO! Ugh I deal with enough ghettoness at home (lol)
3 people were fired Friday which is unfortunate but it had to be done. And I'm kind of glad because I was tired of picking up the slack of others anyway.
(Hours later)
I've had this post opened up since earlier today but didn't finish so I might as well talk about my day today.
So today workers from others stores came in to fill the void of the fired workers.. I walked in to work and was surprised because this guy I gave a ride a week prior was at the cash register. Now this guy is hella weird and ima tell you why, lol. So about a week ago on Saturday I had to training to go to and different sales associates were there from different stores so I met all of them and we linked up on either twitter/facebook and or BBM. At the end of our training this one guy came over and started talking to me. He seemed cool and he needed a ride home so I offered and we gave him a ride to where he needed to go.. Now that seems fine right? So a day later on his day OFF at his store which is far from mine, he came up to my store just to say thank again for the ride.. Now it was just weird because why would he come to my store thanking me when he did it enough before he got out of the car??? #redflag so now that 3 people are fired at my store and we work in the SAME district he's gonna be working with me for a week or so.
He's up under me All day talking and trying to get to know me and it's like uhh.. I'm not letting you into my life lol. Hella weird going on about wanting to take me to a bar, offering me his cigarettes *for the record my lungs are CLEAN* being nice but irritating at the same time. I'm pretty sweet and I listen to him but it's like DUDE! Why are you here? lol i give you a ride, then you come randomly visit me, THEN you're working where I work it's just too much of a small world.
It's crazy that when you re single you get little to no attention but when you're in a relationship dudes come from out of the wood works trying their hand.. it's to often that dudes flirt with me nowadays.. Like whoa playa get back. Now I have to work with one.. But I have a Job and this is what I wanted so ill be okay. :)
Until next time, later!
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Good girls get h*rny too.
I'm having a GOOD time with YOU! Ever just been able to express every sexual feeling you've ever had with someone? It's the greatest feeling beside (#pause it's lightening and thundering really hard out) giving yourself an orgasm. LOVE plays a big part too. BUT umm, having that one person in your life fulfill every fantasy and go above and beyond to get you past your peck is absolutely FANTASTIC! and guess what? I gots me a man like that! *blows fingernails* hehe.. sometimes its hard holding it all together because we set goals in this relationship, BUT having someone that ooze sexiness and sex appeal is tough to not want to jump all over, on top of him being hard. lol.. let me stop. But ladies understand. Never have i ever been a whore, well let me take that back because I get kind of nasty when the time is right. I like what I like and it takes a grown ass man to be able to understand what I need, and he does. Going on 24 and is an all around beast. Plus he always make sure I'm good in all aspects of my life +++. *Sings: Oh me oh my body like a monsta* lol. Finally feel like I matter, and with that I'm finally able have selfless love. I can give without receiving and I love to please. I'm not constantly sad or trapped into this. I want this, him, us! Shoot who wouldn't.. Being totally open with one person is wayyyy better then sowing your royal oats or however you say it. What I'm saying is that you guys need to get you some of what i've got! it's only right. That type of iish that makes you wanna brag about it. I never fully kiss and tell though. lol
Toodles..
Toodles..
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Le sigh..
Umm, I really dont know how to feel right now. *rolls eyes* I'm happy but someone else isn't.. I just really wish I could have this day and you be happy for me and with me. Got a lot of love from my fam and friends but you're really what matters most right now.. I understand what youre going thru of course because ive been there.. But DANGIT! What about me? I kind of feel like you dont want me around. I dont want to bost but im excited.. I just wont say anything about me anymore.. For you to be happy.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
#Blessed
So happy and thankful right now. But I guess I'll have to be happy for myself.. About 30mins ago I got the call that I've been waiting for, for weeks! I got the Job at Radio Shack but it was a long process that I had to go thru first before being able to start working. That's what the call was about ^_^ I start working on Thursday and I'm so excited, but more relieved then anything. This is the break that I've been needing/wanting. This is the something new that I was talking about. *sighs* I'm proud of myself. I honestly never give myself enough credit. I knew that once I started being true to myself that things would all fall into place. I'm so grateful and thankful for everything that's going on in my life right now. Momma always said that trouble don't last always and she was right. Now I gotta go tell my friends so they can be extra happy with me :) Swear ill be the best Radio Shack employee ever. Haha :)
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
A lot on my mind
As a young woman you want security in your relationship. You want to know how much your man loves you in detail. I always feel defeated when i ask the question Why and or how much do you love me? I don't want to have to ask thousands of questions after that simple question :-/ and i feel like i constantly do. It's not that i don't believe the love that he has for me but I want to know. When I love, I love hard. I always make sure that he's aware of how i feel when I'm feeling any type of way. It relieves all doubt even if there isn't any. Maybe it's just a woman type of thing.. We want to spoil our men and let them know that "Hey, you're the one for me and I'll love you through anything, always and forever". All the time. Yes, All the time. It should be second nature. It's one thing to know and another to want to hear reasons why. I can recall being in relationship where I didn't understand what love was.. I couldn't answer the question "Why do you love me?" without mentioning things that didn't matter to him at all. What his interest were, what he aspired to be in life and things of that nature. Not because I didn't care but I just wasn't in the mindset to remember those things. Now that I have a genuine love I know just about all that I need to know about you. I love you. You are my heart. I've never had a love like the love you give me and it is in it's purist form. I just want what I give in return. I want it to happen willingly, Because you want to express why it is that you love me. I smile and get all extra bubbly inside when I think of you. And that's it! You know where your heart is when your mind wonders. Not a day goes by that I'm not thinking of you. I can honestly say that I know your heart. I know you love me with everything that you have. I don't doubt that. I just need to know why without me having to ask..
Monday, April 25, 2011
Hiyah!
Hey anons (The random ppl reading my blog) :)
I'm sitting Indian style on my bed with the laptop my lap of course, eating white cheddar pop corn.. The death of braces -_- But that's not what I'm here to talk about. I just came back from a pretty awesome vacation and I'm excited! Wanna know why? Because if it's in God's will I'll be working at Radio Shack! :D Now before I went on vacation, I had an interview on a Wednesday and my vacay started on Friday.. I was a little sceptical about the interview because The guy was like "Why should I pick you out of the other 50 people that I've interviewed today"? I said something like; because I'm dedicated, trust worthy, responsible and I simply get the job done and I staired him dead in his eyes as he smiled and said I really think I'm the best girl for this job, I wont disappoint you. sn: He was weird and African and extra excited and extra weird but the interview was fun nonetheless lol. He shook my hand and told me that I'd be receiving a call on Friday for further information on the status of my employment. The same Friday i boarded the Amtrak train at 10:30ish lol I got the call but it was a missed call -_-. So I checked my voicemail and it was 1 new message but i couldn't hear it because i was in a bad signal area ;-( I heard bits and pieces of the message but i didn't understand what it was saying. I was on a verge of having a temper tantrum because i just couldn't lose this opportunity. Somehow the message was deleted *I was finished* I instantly came to the conclusion that I passed the first interview. But I didn't know who to call? I called Larry the manager of the Radio Shack in Forest ville but he was switched to a different store. I received the number to the store that he was at and he told me that i passed the interview and that i was to call the radio shack at Penn Station.. At this point i was like What The Heck! They were giving me the run around lol, I'm like Lord please provide me with this opportunity because you know what i need. So I call and ask for "Tony the manager" and I explain to him that I'm on the Amtrak train on my way out of town for a so called "Family emergency" and he tells me to take the time that i need and call him when I get back.
One week goes by..
I'm sitting Indian style on my bed with the laptop my lap of course, eating white cheddar pop corn.. The death of braces -_- But that's not what I'm here to talk about. I just came back from a pretty awesome vacation and I'm excited! Wanna know why? Because if it's in God's will I'll be working at Radio Shack! :D Now before I went on vacation, I had an interview on a Wednesday and my vacay started on Friday.. I was a little sceptical about the interview because The guy was like "Why should I pick you out of the other 50 people that I've interviewed today"? I said something like; because I'm dedicated, trust worthy, responsible and I simply get the job done and I staired him dead in his eyes as he smiled and said I really think I'm the best girl for this job, I wont disappoint you. sn: He was weird and African and extra excited and extra weird but the interview was fun nonetheless lol. He shook my hand and told me that I'd be receiving a call on Friday for further information on the status of my employment. The same Friday i boarded the Amtrak train at 10:30ish lol I got the call but it was a missed call -_-. So I checked my voicemail and it was 1 new message but i couldn't hear it because i was in a bad signal area ;-( I heard bits and pieces of the message but i didn't understand what it was saying. I was on a verge of having a temper tantrum because i just couldn't lose this opportunity. Somehow the message was deleted *I was finished* I instantly came to the conclusion that I passed the first interview. But I didn't know who to call? I called Larry the manager of the Radio Shack in Forest ville but he was switched to a different store. I received the number to the store that he was at and he told me that i passed the interview and that i was to call the radio shack at Penn Station.. At this point i was like What The Heck! They were giving me the run around lol, I'm like Lord please provide me with this opportunity because you know what i need. So I call and ask for "Tony the manager" and I explain to him that I'm on the Amtrak train on my way out of town for a so called "Family emergency" and he tells me to take the time that i need and call him when I get back.
One week goes by..
I call scared that someone else who was available took my spot but those worries quickly came to an end :) All i need now is a background check and the job is mine <3 I'm so blessed and highly favored. All thanks goes to the man above.
I'm excited because this is the break I've been needing a JOB.
:)
Saturday, April 23, 2011
on the Amtrak Train home.
On my way back home from vacation. 7 days of stress relief and FUN. Had a blast with one missing piece to the puzzle tho. Our time will come. :) I love you.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Britney Spears - Till The World Ends
This video gets me so hype! I jump up and down and head bang.. lol I adore Britney <3
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Friday, April 8, 2011
Lawd hammercy..
No matter what I do, I ALWAYS find you (or run into you).. LOL it's crazy because I'm just browsing tumblr and there you are.. The name seems familiar because You Use The SAME Name for EVERYTHING LOL and i'm like *hovers my mouse over your name and clicks* and BAM! It never fails.. Good to see that you're doing okay :) I could use a good laugh every now and again. I didnt follow tho.. Maybe in the near future.
Friday, April 1, 2011
I'm good now.. Being by myself isn't bad, summertime is around the corner and I can focus on building myself up. I've realized that I've tried to bulid too many people up and I'm worthy of those things myself. ;) sometimes you gotta smile to keep from crying. But I'm a water bag boo hoo hooooo. But Gods got my back. Blessed and favored.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
These quotes have so much to do with my life right now.
"Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do."
- Pope John XXIII
"I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustration were actually laying
the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy.People who fail to achieve their goals usually get stopped by frustration. They allow frustration to keep them from taking the necessary actions that would support them in achieving their desire. You get through this roadblock by plowing through frustration, taking each setback as feedback you can learn from, and pushing ahead. I doubt you'll find many successful people who have not experienced this. All successful people learn that success is buried on the other side of frustration."
- Tony Robbins
"The most sacred place dwells within our heart, where dreams are born and secrets
sleep, a mystical refuge of darkness and light, fear and conquest, adventure and
discovery, challenge and transformation. Our heart speaks for our soul every moment
while we are alive. Listen... as the whispering beat repeats: be...gin, be...gin,
be...gin. It's really that simple. Just begin... again."
- Royce Addington
- Pope John XXIII
"I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustration were actually laying
the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy.People who fail to achieve their goals usually get stopped by frustration. They allow frustration to keep them from taking the necessary actions that would support them in achieving their desire. You get through this roadblock by plowing through frustration, taking each setback as feedback you can learn from, and pushing ahead. I doubt you'll find many successful people who have not experienced this. All successful people learn that success is buried on the other side of frustration."
- Tony Robbins
"The most sacred place dwells within our heart, where dreams are born and secrets
sleep, a mystical refuge of darkness and light, fear and conquest, adventure and
discovery, challenge and transformation. Our heart speaks for our soul every moment
while we are alive. Listen... as the whispering beat repeats: be...gin, be...gin,
be...gin. It's really that simple. Just begin... again."
- Royce Addington
All over the place..
I always wonder if God looks down on me and thinks that I'm a failure beings that I've done more wrong then right in my 20 years of life. I've went around feeling bad for myself all the time. Not being able to talk to people about my feelings and then when I finally find the man of my dreams I go and mess things up.. With him thinking that everything that he's ever done was wrong when it wasn't.. How can you explain to one how sorry you are for hurting them for so long? from my experience you can't. They don't hear you when they're hurt, all they feel is pain. I wish pain was like a door that I could break through to explain to you how special you are to me, yourself and the world. You taught me things that i didn't know and things that I had no knowledge of. With you it was the little stuff that mattered. Times where I felt like I couldnt go on with my own life and you were there for me. I couldnt sleep without you but on some occasions I had too because of what ever the circumstances were at that time. What im saying is.. You're nothing short of Amazing. Don't sell yourself short, you have to be the one to believe that you are worthy of something great. If while with me you learned nothing just know that I Love You and I've always tried to lift you up and make you happy. I suffer everyday knowing that I was the one who bruised you for life. I dearly cherished the time, heart, soul and effort you put into me. You live in my heart, I continue to breathe because of God and second you. You were my blessing. my everything and still to this day I love you with all of my heart..
Love, Brittany..
Love, Brittany..
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Heavenly Father
With you I put all my trust, nothing can keep me from you. Prayer always works. I thank you for everything you've ever given me. You continue to bless me and I promise I won't complain anymore.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Dawn Richard - "BulletProof" (Produced by Anonymous)
The lyrics to this song really spoke to me at a point in my life where i felt like i had dealt with so much BULLSHIT that i couldn't be anything but BULLETPROOF after going thru the worst of the worst. this is for all the survivors out there who keep going after each let down, trial and tribulation...trust me..there's always happiness on the other side of the hill. we just have to see it all the way thru and learn the lesson we were meant to endure thru..
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
I want a relationship that's not all about sex. I just want to cuddle with you, and be able to tell you how my day was. I want to be able to tell you how happy you make me, send you text while you're right beside me. I want to hold you when you're upset, and kiss your pain away. I just want you all to myslef.
then after that, have sex <3
^^^^^^^^
That's what you give me
then after that, have sex <3
^^^^^^^^
That's what you give me
Monday, March 21, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Friday, March 18, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Say a prayer for me as I'll do for you.
Just finished my poem "Love between LOVERS" and I'm suddenly sad.. Le sigh :( This poem took longer to write just because I had a lot flowing through my head. I'm pretty much stuck at a stand still. What am i to do I ask God? He'll show me the right away.. I'll just continue to pray on it..
Friday, March 4, 2011
Love between LOVERS
His heart is the immovable object
My love is the irresistible force
But what happens when those two meet
I’ll tell you
For about a week we peak
And then after that we become weak
Weak to each others touch
And softened by one another’s kiss
Yet I have never felt more whole than this
When I’m with him my heart doesn’t beat
My eyes don’t set past him
Afraid that some day I’ll pass him
And we won’t speak
So we text at three in the morning
Mourning those moments when we were apart
Know this, his immovable object
Formally known as a heart
Shall some day set upon another?
But what is this
Love between lovers
Never lust
Knowing that not to last long enough for a goodbye kiss
Painting his beauty knowing it not to last long
Singing with symphonies knowing never to match his hearts song
But I shall no longer allow this written love to prolong
I just know it will be a terrible day when this little piece of my heart is gone
These words I say to you
Before bidding you adue
Wishing only for another day after our last
Hoping he doesn’t forget our past.
My love is the irresistible force
But what happens when those two meet
I’ll tell you
For about a week we peak
And then after that we become weak
Weak to each others touch
And softened by one another’s kiss
Yet I have never felt more whole than this
When I’m with him my heart doesn’t beat
My eyes don’t set past him
Afraid that some day I’ll pass him
And we won’t speak
So we text at three in the morning
Mourning those moments when we were apart
Know this, his immovable object
Formally known as a heart
Shall some day set upon another?
But what is this
Love between lovers
Never lust
Knowing that not to last long enough for a goodbye kiss
Painting his beauty knowing it not to last long
Singing with symphonies knowing never to match his hearts song
But I shall no longer allow this written love to prolong
I just know it will be a terrible day when this little piece of my heart is gone
These words I say to you
Before bidding you adue
Wishing only for another day after our last
Hoping he doesn’t forget our past.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
All over the place dreams/thoughts
I love you. I often lust for you. Thinking and day dreaming of the way that you looked at me.. That smirk you had on your face ^_^ Your body hovering over mine while we both moaned with passion in our eyes.. a part of me felt free, even relieved, all because I loved you. I L is for the way you look at me, O is for the only one I see, V is very very Extra ordinary, E is even more than anyone that you'll adore, tehehe. You get it right?.. Me making love to you while whispering into your ear what I'd like for you to do to me next. You never decline. You've always been the type to take control. I love that. I orgasm ever so gently as you tell me that I'm who you want to spend the rest of your life with. ish like that gets me every time. I clinch my thighs tighter pulling you closer to me, mmm cum for me baby, yes I could be a lil rauncy. You kiss my fore head as if I was your daughter, gosh how I love for you to be my Daddy. Ha You do everything in your power to please me and you exceed my expections. my flow picks up and you take that as a challenge thrusting and pulling, biting and sucking the life out of me.. I say oh no not again but it's to late.. I submit to you yet again. You feel me, you trust me, you love me, you'd tell me you wanted to fuck me.. from time to time.. but it was always love. switching positions
wouldn't you like to know the rest? Shoot me too.. my mind jumped and idk what was really going on I just typed whatever was happening..
wouldn't you like to know the rest? Shoot me too.. my mind jumped and idk what was really going on I just typed whatever was happening..
Monday, February 14, 2011
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
Feeling good about you.
Last night. *snickers*
Last night was nothing short of amazing..
I wake up longing for whatever it is that you do to me.
Love at it's finest.
I never feel used with you.
If I'm used it's in the right way.
The tone in your voice or maybe the way you call me name.
What could it be?
Or is it just you.
I pray with you.
Eat with you.
talk to you.
walk with you.
sleep with you.
cry with you.
feel for you.
I'd kill for you. *a spider of course*
What I'm saying is that you give me reason to stay focused/sane.
Spirituality is what's most important to me.
You teach me.
I annoy you.
You correct me.
I joke around.
You put me in my place.
I sing loud and obnoxiously.
You become silent.
I never understand why.
Nonetheless, You love me with everything that I do. That's the way that it's suppose to be. Love through God can be so strong, and with him all things are possible. You never really know what love is until you find someone who can give you everything you NEED appose to what you want. And you do that for me without any reservations. I remember when you said we could never be friends well, lol You're officially my Best friend and I wouldn't trade you for the world! <3
Last night was nothing short of amazing..
I wake up longing for whatever it is that you do to me.
Love at it's finest.
I never feel used with you.
If I'm used it's in the right way.
The tone in your voice or maybe the way you call me name.
What could it be?
Or is it just you.
I pray with you.
Eat with you.
talk to you.
walk with you.
sleep with you.
cry with you.
feel for you.
I'd kill for you. *a spider of course*
What I'm saying is that you give me reason to stay focused/sane.
Spirituality is what's most important to me.
You teach me.
I annoy you.
You correct me.
I joke around.
You put me in my place.
I sing loud and obnoxiously.
You become silent.
I never understand why.
Nonetheless, You love me with everything that I do. That's the way that it's suppose to be. Love through God can be so strong, and with him all things are possible. You never really know what love is until you find someone who can give you everything you NEED appose to what you want. And you do that for me without any reservations. I remember when you said we could never be friends well, lol You're officially my Best friend and I wouldn't trade you for the world! <3
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Granted
I've been a follower
For longer than I've been a lover of you
And if you think it's not long enough
to shake me
then you don't know me yet
I fall. Fast
That's the easy part
But I have trouble getting back up
And dusting off the sick feeling
that I get every time I think about
leaving here.
It's what I do best.
It's the one thing that drew us
together with picket fence dreams
and it's my one flaw
that you take for granted.
I take a lot of things for granted.
Loving, for example.
This is not the easy part
It takes so much more to stay
than to go
And I've been going for years now,
wandering and waiting
and calmly expecting change to happen
It always comes
rushing in like a bullhorn on full speed.
I'm always ready for the blow
I wish that I could say that this is it for me
I wish that I could keep my composure
when future plans come into play
I wish that I didn't think that everything
comes so easily
That I deserve everything that I want
I wish I didn't want so much
And that my bones didn't ache for sea sand
I'm jealous of the fixtures we've inherited
Mostly because
I want to feel the same salinity on my cheeks
and something other than snow on my eyelids
I still love. I still wish. I still dream.
I just do it in monotone these days.
And I don't mean to make you think
That it's all because I'm unhappy
Just know
That there is something in you that
Makes me say stay
That tells me I have no choice
But to root myself in you
And if you're here, so am I
For longer than I've been a lover of you
And if you think it's not long enough
to shake me
then you don't know me yet
I fall. Fast
That's the easy part
But I have trouble getting back up
And dusting off the sick feeling
that I get every time I think about
leaving here.
It's what I do best.
It's the one thing that drew us
together with picket fence dreams
and it's my one flaw
that you take for granted.
I take a lot of things for granted.
Loving, for example.
This is not the easy part
It takes so much more to stay
than to go
And I've been going for years now,
wandering and waiting
and calmly expecting change to happen
It always comes
rushing in like a bullhorn on full speed.
I'm always ready for the blow
I wish that I could say that this is it for me
I wish that I could keep my composure
when future plans come into play
I wish that I didn't think that everything
comes so easily
That I deserve everything that I want
I wish I didn't want so much
And that my bones didn't ache for sea sand
I'm jealous of the fixtures we've inherited
Mostly because
I want to feel the same salinity on my cheeks
and something other than snow on my eyelids
I still love. I still wish. I still dream.
I just do it in monotone these days.
And I don't mean to make you think
That it's all because I'm unhappy
Just know
That there is something in you that
Makes me say stay
That tells me I have no choice
But to root myself in you
And if you're here, so am I
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
I miss you Dad.

It's been 9 months and I miss you like crazy Dad. I've always had a lot of unanswered questions but I've talked to GOD about it and it's in his hands. I love you, I couldn't say it enough the last time I saw you :) I pray for you and my extended family just about every night. Rest in peace Poppa Pete. No more stress, no more worries. You can finally live & rest comfortably. <3
Untitled
Inevitably... there are things I miss
and things I regret
and promises I can't quite put my
finger on, but must surely be broken
There are spaces between
my clenched jaw and fists
that want to be held by
someone, anyone
who will sit and listen to my
unbearable silence
There are questions that won't give in
and answers that won't budge
There is heaviness, unavoidable weight
that sits and multiplies
the more I try to ignore it
There is so much pressure now
that you can see the buckling
under my pen and heavy fingers
There is no ending
There is only a continuation
when I least suspect its resurrection
Nothing ever dies
Nothing is ever finished
Nothing is ever new
So I see the same dream, always
the one where I'm chasing my selves
to get us all writing on the same page
to spread out the heaviness
((like nails to the back))
and things I regret
and promises I can't quite put my
finger on, but must surely be broken
There are spaces between
my clenched jaw and fists
that want to be held by
someone, anyone
who will sit and listen to my
unbearable silence
There are questions that won't give in
and answers that won't budge
There is heaviness, unavoidable weight
that sits and multiplies
the more I try to ignore it
There is so much pressure now
that you can see the buckling
under my pen and heavy fingers
There is no ending
There is only a continuation
when I least suspect its resurrection
Nothing ever dies
Nothing is ever finished
Nothing is ever new
So I see the same dream, always
the one where I'm chasing my selves
to get us all writing on the same page
to spread out the heaviness
((like nails to the back))
Tell her, when she comes, to bring a remedy..
Yes. I bet it stung.
like forcing those last words
to finally slip from your tongue
Don't worry, love
You are no more or less broken
or resilient
than you pretended to be
Before I met you, I was known
by some other girl's name.
You know, the one that made you
feel like you had to fix me
and that one that convinced you
that you could. Someday.
So you see I'm just the same sad song
on repeat and I know how it feels
Believe me. Or don't.
The endings never made sense to you anyway
so you stuffed my
book of poems inside your
book of questions and expected
me to give you all the answers
like they haven't been there all along..
But what you've been reading is
all half-hope and half-lies--
the white kind. They seemed
purer. Or simpler.
But I've never done simple,
never wanted the neatly trimmed
forgiveness and solid lines
I'm attracted to the complications
that formed the boulder sitting
on the tip of your tongue.
I wasn't the only one to sting you
wasn't the only one to leave you
in your dust of mourning
and I won't be the last
So when you ask me why I'm running
I will probably say I'm a fan of history
and I don't want to
break the pattern
'cause it hurts too much to
rip the stitches, love.
like forcing those last words
to finally slip from your tongue
Don't worry, love
You are no more or less broken
or resilient
than you pretended to be
Before I met you, I was known
by some other girl's name.
You know, the one that made you
feel like you had to fix me
and that one that convinced you
that you could. Someday.
So you see I'm just the same sad song
on repeat and I know how it feels
Believe me. Or don't.
The endings never made sense to you anyway
so you stuffed my
book of poems inside your
book of questions and expected
me to give you all the answers
like they haven't been there all along..
But what you've been reading is
all half-hope and half-lies--
the white kind. They seemed
purer. Or simpler.
But I've never done simple,
never wanted the neatly trimmed
forgiveness and solid lines
I'm attracted to the complications
that formed the boulder sitting
on the tip of your tongue.
I wasn't the only one to sting you
wasn't the only one to leave you
in your dust of mourning
and I won't be the last
So when you ask me why I'm running
I will probably say I'm a fan of history
and I don't want to
break the pattern
'cause it hurts too much to
rip the stitches, love.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Feeling like F it all.
Ever feel like you've emotionally shut down? That's how I feel right now. I don't have thick skin and I take everything to heart.. Guess it's my choice to pick and choose what matters and what doesn't.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
Confession
When I miss you, I stalk you.
... I'm not quite obsessed but umm, I miss you..
Plays Sam Cooke..
At first I thought it was infatuation
But woo, it's lasted so long
Now I find myself wanting
To marry you and take you home
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
You, you, you, you send me
I know you send me
I know you send me
Honest you do
More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/you_send_me_lyrics_sam_cooke.html
All about Sam Cooke: http://www.musictory.com/music/Sam+Cooke
... I'm not quite obsessed but umm, I miss you..
Plays Sam Cooke..
At first I thought it was infatuation
But woo, it's lasted so long
Now I find myself wanting
To marry you and take you home
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
You, you, you, you send me
I know you send me
I know you send me
Honest you do
More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/you_send_me_lyrics_sam_cooke.html
All about Sam Cooke: http://www.musictory.com/music/Sam+Cooke
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Random guy: Why the fukk do you have a cell phone..
if all you do is text??...
iz that like the new trend wit females now? niggas gotta go thru this long ass drawn out ass process of textin the bitch for about a month & a half, until SHE feels like we can now go past a texting conversation... its the lamest shit EVER. we might as well go back to 1999 when we had two way pagers then... since a bitch aint tryna talk to u. im just sayin... communication is going down the drain. if u think im finna be finger fuckin my phone everytime i wanna talk to u.... u trippin. come on now, get it together ladies.. itz easier to knock a bitch talkin than it iz textin...
wtf iz texting??
what part of the game iz that?
u cant really serenade a bitch if u typing letters...
obviously u not a player if you think this shit is cool.
Me: o.O
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
iz that like the new trend wit females now? niggas gotta go thru this long ass drawn out ass process of textin the bitch for about a month & a half, until SHE feels like we can now go past a texting conversation... its the lamest shit EVER. we might as well go back to 1999 when we had two way pagers then... since a bitch aint tryna talk to u. im just sayin... communication is going down the drain. if u think im finna be finger fuckin my phone everytime i wanna talk to u.... u trippin. come on now, get it together ladies.. itz easier to knock a bitch talkin than it iz textin...
wtf iz texting??
what part of the game iz that?
u cant really serenade a bitch if u typing letters...
obviously u not a player if you think this shit is cool.
Me: o.O
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Good Dick?
So... I'm watching "Good Dick" and this movie is WILD! It's been about 22mins since the start of the movie and I'm like WOOOOOOOOOOW! No it's not all overly sexed up or anything, but this guy works at a video store and he's like OBSESSED with one of the customers... *MAJOR side-eye* LOL. This weird freakin guy sleeps in his car OUTSIDE of her building.. Eek *screams to the freakin top of my lungs* randomly comes to her apartment door and tries to talk to her, making up lies just to get into her apartment. This chick must be off her rocker!!!! It doesn't even seem like they know each others names... And yes all of the DOT DOT DOTS are necessary.. He eventually gets into her place and it's kinda weird the first time but nothing extreme happens. The second time he gets into her place he ask to watch an erotica movie with her which is the type of movies she would buy from his store, she declines LOL. #pause This $h!+ is weird, but I must say it's kind of a turn on because it's different and I like different O.o So around the third time he comes over they finally watch the movie together and he claims he doesn't like it... (DID I MENTION that he watched her masturbate at the beginning of the movie, so this guy followed her HOME and hasn't missed at night outside of or in her house since. Woooooooo Nelly! ) The forth time they eat ice cream pops and watch more movies and they talk about how big the guys cock is on the screen, LOL. Cock sounds so weird to me, kinda makes me feel like a little child inside, hahaha. Anywho, They make a bet that if his cock is bigger then the guy(8in.) on the screen that he gets to sleep in her bed. *Dun dun dunnnnnnnn* IT IS! so they sleep in the same bed, act all weird, he recites some poetry or tells her a story idk, but eventually she gets up in the morning and takes a shower and while shes bathing, he masturbates in her bed. Ok, Ok, OKAY! I'm takin aback BECAUSE it all doesn't make sense. Why let a random guy come into your house? let him sleep on your couch? let him watch erotica movies with you? then sleep in your bed? Yep this girl is officially considered "Creepy". Some of these situations are understandable but the rest are just down right CRAZY! I wanna know why hasn't she slept with him yet? is she a-sexual, lesbian or possibly she just doesn't get down like that. *Shrugs* (Watches movie until something interesting I like happens) :). *5 minutes go by* She's a loner and all she does is stay home watch erotica and masturbate, and he doesn't understand why.. Ha sounds all to familiar. She's pretty much well off and doesn't work and he stays in her apartment with her. He gets her out of her place for a first and tries to get her to enjoy life. The type of movies she watches aren't even penetrating and or anything to get aroused off of. This chick just needs to get laid! Honestly I'm up to the part where nothing else can be explained you guys just have to see the movie.
I LOVED it <3. Soooo up my alley of movies.
Hope yall enjoyed my commentary :)
Until next time
-B
I LOVED it <3. Soooo up my alley of movies.
Hope yall enjoyed my commentary :)
Until next time
-B
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Phill Wade & Friends Jam Session 14
Lawd i be feeling like this all the time.
that shall be over sooner than later tho.
Phill & Enjolee are a great duo.
:)
*Why don't you open youre mouth and talk to me?*
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Only Girl In The World(With Me)
SWEAR I SING THIS SONG JUST LIKE THIS!!! LOL
hE IS SOOOOO FUNNY!
I LOVE THIS LITTLE GUY!
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