I always wonder if God looks down on me and thinks that I'm a failure beings that I've done more wrong then right in my 20 years of life. I've went around feeling bad for myself all the time. Not being able to talk to people about my feelings and then when I finally find the man of my dreams I go and mess things up.. With him thinking that everything that he's ever done was wrong when it wasn't.. How can you explain to one how sorry you are for hurting them for so long? from my experience you can't. They don't hear you when they're hurt, all they feel is pain. I wish pain was like a door that I could break through to explain to you how special you are to me, yourself and the world. You taught me things that i didn't know and things that I had no knowledge of. With you it was the little stuff that mattered. Times where I felt like I couldnt go on with my own life and you were there for me. I couldnt sleep without you but on some occasions I had too because of what ever the circumstances were at that time. What im saying is.. You're nothing short of Amazing. Don't sell yourself short, you have to be the one to believe that you are worthy of something great. If while with me you learned nothing just know that I Love You and I've always tried to lift you up and make you happy. I suffer everyday knowing that I was the one who bruised you for life. I dearly cherished the time, heart, soul and effort you put into me. You live in my heart, I continue to breathe because of God and second you. You were my blessing. my everything and still to this day I love you with all of my heart..
Love, Brittany..