I've never had this feeling before, well ofcourse until a couple of months ago. So nobody I mean nobody has my heart more then my love. It's hard to find someone whose going to be there for you through thick and thin. It's like blah! Or that's how I feel anyway. I was the type of girl that it something bad happened in my relationship I would run to other guys for comfort, meaning conversation. Which was the wrong thing to do. Anywho, I'm in a bad place right now. Lot of stuff going on and I don't feel the need to run to anyother guy like I use to. I just want my love back. Even though I messed things up real bad. It's lik you know what you have until it's gone... And that's what I'm feeling. I want to be selfish and keep him all to myself. But that's dead... This was just a quick ramble.

Written from my iPhone

Thinking of love.

Two souls, but with a single thought. Two hearts that beat as one. we are whole. Or I wish

Laughing at love

I’ll laugh at love
As if to hide my fears
Though it truly knows who I am
As a child I sit
In a dark room with no love to play with
I would love to go outside and toil
Simply to run in the midnight air
But pain seems to be the rainiest this day
And shinning suns refuse to allow me their shadow
Though I am all too familiar with love
Guarantees a smile
Never disapproving ones heart
Never allowing for wrongful passage
Yet I have slipped into an opposing direction
One filled with numbness
An emptied obsession
One telling all too well how lonely one truly is
So I make mockery of what I do not possess
And secretly wish upon a star
One filled with another’s heart
Fulfilling all that I desire
In my regret I shall not cry
I shall just laugh at love

Hardly making it.

In not so many words, I need you! I've never been one to be able to express myself clearly but here's what I'm feeling.
Well what's on my mind.


This poem is entitled: Simple

Emotions are simple notions
Dead flowers for a dying heart
Devotion written off like simple waves in an ocean
love so torn apart
What is it to be inlove?
Or to have loved once upon a time
Do the memories of then change
are they hidden in the quaintest of rhymes?
Does passion exceed ones limitations
Does it allow for one to be so foolish?
The lover says
I would Gladly fall to my end
if only to see you at the bottom
Yet life just as death
Is so endless
But we fall in love as fools do
Wishing only to see a lovers face after all this torment
Emotions
Such simple notions they are
Able to create flaw
And give pain so invisible
Dead flowers for this dying heart
Ones once so pink and yellow
So purple and blue
No black and fading
Just as love does to you.

Written from my iPhone

What to do, without you.

Without your guidance and protection whose gonna lead me in the right direction?

Fck, love.

Fuck love
Fuck the horse it road in on
Fuck the road it travelled
And fuck the guy that made the road
See I foresaw him leaving
And he foresaw me pleading
So as bleeding hearts poor out
he already knows what I am saying
Fuck the thought that I couldn’t be without you
Thinking that you’re all that’s on my mind at 12:30... AM

Even though it’s true
Fuck the fact that you’re irreplaceable
Because others are so chase-able
And I would rather run then see your love flee
I would rather fall then to see you flying without me
Fuck love and all its extremities
Like passion
And lustful thoughts
And LOVE
Fuck it in its entirety
The whole thing Just for saying F me.

I love you.. and that's REAL

Troof.com

If you truely love your Wife you should value her opinion. - Prince Hakeem

My Love > Her Love

Thinking about a lot.

I just want to love you, but sometimes I find that it's a hard thing to do.
I sit around wondering if things were different, how would things be in our lives?
I know that we'd be perfect together.
I want us to grow old together.
I guess I'm just a failure.
Worthless, more or less.
Well, that's what I've been told.
Nah, I don't feel bad for myself.
I just wish that I was able to start all over and do things the right way.

From 101 blogs to 28. I went back and deleted most of the blogs that had me feeling bad way back since november. I hated seeing those blogs up where I felt lifeless and worthless. I may me deleting this blog and starting all over. Something totally different. But until then you can find me elsewhere.

Swagg City Radio!

Omg lol, I called in to swagg city radio lol and it was so cool! I'm shaking right now. I was on the radiooooooooooo! Dammit, I'm so ready for my life to take off as a Radio/TV personality! I can just imagine now. Beautiful Brittany the face of Radio/TV! Look out world! I'm coming!

smh

I just don't know what to do anymore. :0(

You're A Jerk!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qv9VKKXwVxU
(I'm not sure why it didnt just show up! )


Womp, womp, womp, womp, womp! Why you trippin' I ain't even do nothin'. I'm a jerk? You ain't never lied, but aye do me a favor call me "JERK" one more time!

If you know me, you know that I love bright clothes! Weird music well correction! "All types of music" and this song has my attention right now. I so like wanna go to cali just to dance with these kids LOL! Ha cause I'ma Jerk! LOL

Check it out tho.

Smooch & Dash

Khloe Kardashian! I <3 her. Shes weird but sexy to me. I kind of understand her life a little by watching the show "Keeping up with the Kardashian's". Shes always been the odd ball out of their family because shes taller than the others and BLAH BLAH BLAH. I felt the same growing up, because I didn't feel as if I was pretty. I was a funny looking little kid and I just started to grow into my looks (shout out to my daddy for helping me with that) LOL. plus I seen the documentary of the Kardashian story, on E! Khole was really close to her father and I believe the other too were closer to their mother. something like that... But basically, I dig her! Her style, her akwardness, her smile is cute and I believe shes just a beautiful human being. :o)! Shes also really smart and she has goals just like myself. A good role model if you ask me. besides her DUI's ha! Btw, I'm thinking of starting a vlog... just of my day to day, things of that nature. I get inspired very easily. Ofcourse I plan on getting a camera, Duh LOL. Because i have money in the bank to do things like that! Nah, lmao I'm broke and the money in the bank is for hard times.

ps. remember smooch & dash! LOL, you Kardashian lovers know of what I'm talking about.

-B

Resortation At Last.

your mouth is a cavern hiding spring
which any tongue discovers and shares
with my frazzled sensibilities.
the honey-ginger baby of my latest dreams,
u spice me
into forgetting the bland heroes
who rumaged my inner-cabinets
not because they were thieves
but because they were hungry.

and just when I thought bareness was my destiny,
here u come
replenishing my juices faster than i can absorb.
and oh,
the way you tend my fires
making my short hair stand on the top of my head
in a salute to love and the ecstacy
of being allowed to be my illustrious self.

You restore(d) me.