better luck next time .

I don't know. but the man up above does..

disliking you could be so easy...

and sometimes my mouth forms the word hate but the word l o v e quickly forms afterwards.. i use the color lite blue because when thinking of love, something heavenly comes to mind. that heavenly thing is you! (would have used caps but my phone wont let me) love youve never failed me before. but youve put me through trails that werent so good but still ive made it through. everytime i use the word love i mean it. so im counting on you love to see me through... guide me in the right direction.

i trust you.

I don't remember feeling like this... BABY

I never knew another human life, could have the power to take over mine. -Ashanti

I love it when I hear your name, got me saying

BABY BABY BABY BABY BABYYY!

(Baby, I love you)

Throw back movie.

Watching Dr. Giggles. this movie still freaks me out.

looking up to the stars

up again at 5am. I miss you like crazy. i hate to be up this early by myself.. :( suddenly sad.

Quotes

If it must be trouble, let it be in my day. So that my child can have peace - Thomas Payne

insomnia rap/poem.

As sleepy as a bear in the winter time..

I'll curl up like a ball and try to exit this light.

Night. Well, mawnin'.

Its about to be the crack of dawn and..

Im not even sure what to say.

I guess i'll just make the best of what comes today.

paha.. idk restlessness is slowly going away.

suddenly weak/sleepy and teary eyed.

peace and €blessings beautiful people.

4:30 am ramble gamble

up in the weeeee hours of the morning..

eyes low, mentally tired but physically amped.

sitting in indian style on my bed playing "Word Mole".

Beat about five levels but havent gotten past that yet..

I have some type of problem, which ive been aware of for a while.

Not sure exactly what it is but, i need to get pass this.

I've been contemplating enlisting in the miliarty but, thats a no go.

Too many ppl out here that i care for and I could'nt just leave.

commuting back and forth to school isnt gonna happen anymore.

I'm going further away to complete my college education.

it'll be for the best. i get to get away from my mother.

days like this makes me miss my dad.

like, even though he wasnt the father i needed, i would pretend and say little things like..

"Shoot, im going to stay with my father and you dont have to worry about me anymore".

so much for wishing huh? that would have never happened if my life depended on it.

it still made me feel better though.

I have so much to do, in what I feel like I dont have enough time to do it.

Here i go rambling on. After all these years i still dont know how to explain myself.

Shame on me, ha.

Anywho, this torch has a crampy little keyboard and typing too long on here has me throwing up gang signs. LOL

wont say goodnight but peace €€€and blessings.

Instantly irritated..

Uggh, But back to my enjoyable mood.




Dances to the music!

OMG!

Take a gander at who this is..



Craig David!

Yassssssssssssssssssssssss! I said the samething you're probably thinking. Who is this heavenly man? I was in awe because he looks completely different. But still a good look. :o)

'bout to download some of his music right now.

Sings: I took her for a drink on Tuesday.. We were making love by Wednesday. & on Thursday & Friday & Saturday & chilled on Sunday. lol

October 5th!

Happy Birthday MEDEA!

Aww, my big sisters bday is today! :o). She's 32 and I love her.
It's been almost two years since ive meet you and I feel like i've known you for a lifetime. Couldnt ask for a better second sister. I know Dad is looking down on us and is proud to have two Beautiful Daughters :o). I Love you Lady Bug :o). i'll be 20 a month from now :o)

Quotes

makes so much since: .. Bad companions corrupt good morals ..

hehe

Dang den.. Lol fun times :o)

fridayyy.

Its FRIDAYYYY. :o)
My sleep was refreshing
Big baby likes to argue with me, but I always get mad first.
.aint my fault I have soft feelings.
I admit I can throw low blows but gah lee.
He called me miss double standard, smh.
But when you mad anything happens
I'm sorry my little pweny handsome face doll. Lol

if you really knew me.

Realized a lot last night after watching "If you really knew me". I set back and reflected with Pooh last night and cried. Its so much pain I have deep within me, that I'm not sure what to do. I feel like I'm gonna be stuck here forever. Noah, I finally feel what you feel. In so many ways I can relate because it was so much that you wanted to do but your dad held you back. Now I'm in the same boat. Ill be 20 soon and I refuse to let my family hold me back any longer. I hope all is well with you and your family, still. And I pray for you often.

Ps. You never actually know what ppl are going through until you're up next to go through simular or possibly the same Situation.