Friday, October 8, 2010

4:30 am ramble gamble

up in the weeeee hours of the morning..
eyes low, mentally tired but physically amped.
sitting in indian style on my bed playing "Word Mole".
Beat about five levels but havent gotten past that yet..
I have some type of problem, which ive been aware of for a while.
Not sure exactly what it is but, i need to get pass this.
I've been contemplating enlisting in the miliarty but, thats a no go.
Too many ppl out here that i care for and I could'nt just leave.
commuting back and forth to school isnt gonna happen anymore.
I'm going further away to complete my college education.
it'll be for the best. i get to get away from my mother.
days like this makes me miss my dad.
like, even though he wasnt the father i needed, i would pretend and say little things like..
"Shoot, im going to stay with my father and you dont have to worry about me anymore".
so much for wishing huh? that would have never happened if my life depended on it.
it still made me feel better though.
I have so much to do, in what I feel like I dont have enough time to do it.
Here i go rambling on. After all these years i still dont know how to explain myself.
Shame on me, ha.
Anywho, this torch has a crampy little keyboard and typing too long on here has me throwing up gang signs. LOL
wont say goodnight but peace €€€and blessings.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Instantly irritated..

Uggh, But back to my enjoyable mood.




Dances to the music!

OMG!

Take a gander at who this is..



Craig David!

Yassssssssssssssssssssssss! I said the samething you're probably thinking. Who is this heavenly man? I was in awe because he looks completely different. But still a good look. :o)

'bout to download some of his music right now.

Sings: I took her for a drink on Tuesday.. We were making love by Wednesday. & on Thursday & Friday & Saturday & chilled on Sunday. lol

October 5th!

Happy Birthday MEDEA!

Aww, my big sisters bday is today! :o). She's 32 and I love her.
It's been almost two years since ive meet you and I feel like i've known you for a lifetime. Couldnt ask for a better second sister. I know Dad is looking down on us and is proud to have two Beautiful Daughters :o). I Love you Lady Bug :o). i'll be 20 a month from now :o)

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Quotes

makes so much since: .. Bad companions corrupt good morals ..

Friday, October 1, 2010

hehe

Dang den.. Lol fun times :o)

fridayyy.

Its FRIDAYYYY. :o)
My sleep was refreshing
Big baby likes to argue with me, but I always get mad first.
.aint my fault I have soft feelings.
I admit I can throw low blows but gah lee.
He called me miss double standard, smh.
But when you mad anything happens
I'm sorry my little pweny handsome face doll. Lol

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

if you really knew me.

Realized a lot last night after watching "If you really knew me". I set back and reflected with Pooh last night and cried. Its so much pain I have deep within me, that I'm not sure what to do. I feel like I'm gonna be stuck here forever. Noah, I finally feel what you feel. In so many ways I can relate because it was so much that you wanted to do but your dad held you back. Now I'm in the same boat. Ill be 20 soon and I refuse to let my family hold me back any longer. I hope all is well with you and your family, still. And I pray for you often.

Ps. You never actually know what ppl are going through until you're up next to go through simular or possibly the same Situation.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Rockin' Out!

"You make me nervous, nervous, nervous." ♥ Hella Nervous; Gravy Train.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

in the mood to sing

And I don't wanna boreeeeeeee you with, my troublessssss. (Skips part) You know I love you, I love you, I love youuuuuu.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Yesssss!!!

My Mommy is HOME! Now it's time for me to gooooo, lol. I've missed her terribly. She pulled through. Better than EVER now. Although I can stick my foot in her Cut. Eek! I Love Herrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Oh she came home Monday, BTW.

Feeling this!!!

I've subcribed to this channel on Youtube and fell inlove with this artiste singing/poetry. He's very talented, inspiring even though he's free styling, lol. I can dig this. Real soothing. Check this OUT!



@phillWade_

Monday, September 13, 2010

What does it mean to "Act White?"

I was on like a six way call and Terrence asked me a question and everybody gave their answer.. typical convo from my friends.. lol gotta love them.. :o) Told them id love to blog everyones answer so here they are, in a nut shell. (Not even sure if I use that right), LOL. Whatever..

Terrence: Brit, let me ask you. What does it mean to "Act White?"

Me: It's no such thing..

Terrence: I agree with you but according to members of our own community. There are people who act white.

Me: Thats ignorance.. Just because some ppl arent all LOUD and Ghetto and or are from the hood doesnt mean that ppl who speak proper act white.. Some say my voice is super light and that I dress white but I'm clearly African American. I just have my own style.. ignorance i tell you..

Terrence: I know. What if I was good at math would they say "I'm acting Asian?" People need to wake up.

Me: LOL True.

Terrence: Disclaimer: I SUCK AT MATH!

Tonya: I hear it all the time... It's so sad that our people limit themselves to recognizing proper english,professionalism,good behavior and concrete life goals... If these things make me white then I'm happy..

Me: (Butting in) Yessssssssss! youre right T.

Marcus: I've learned that from a sociological perspective, there IS such a thing as "acting white." "Acting white" is internalizing Eurocentric standards of behavior, dress, and culture and holding these things as the standard to which every other variation is measured.

Francis: It's a racist and idiotic statement...there is no such thing!

Nicole: it means to act either like their stereotype of a white person (i.e. if you can't dance you are acting white) or completely different from their idea of how a black person "should" act (i.e. if you are vegetarian you are acting white)

Well thats the jist of it.. What do you think? Ask youre friends and see what they say..

Saturday, September 11, 2010

It Never Rains In Southern California

I'm currently DIGGING this song! It came out the year I was born but i'm so into it :D It never rains in Southern California!!! lol owwww

sn: Raphael Saadiq is super duper HOT!








I haven't seen your face in a year
I can't wait till I get there
Just to kiss and squeeze and hug
Girl you know the rest 'cause they tell me

It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California

Maybe I'll take the flight out tonight
and you can pick me up about 8
I don't know what airline girl
but I know it won't be late 'cause they tell me

It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California

Now I can't sleep at night
without your 8 x 10 by my side
that day will come
for us to be together
I'm not worried 'bout a thing
not even stormy weather...

Oh it may be cold on the east coast
but on the other side of town it never rains...

We have so much to talk about
a lot a catchin' up to do
I'll bring the diamond girl
because I'm so into you
cause they tell me...

It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California

Now since I'll be here at your place
lets take a weeks trip for two
We don't have to go to far
just as long as I'm with you
'cause they tell me...

It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California

Can we just be alone
without those other strangers
calling your phone
now I don't want to be
that selfish kind of guy
but tonight let me take you
on a natural high

just me and you alone

Now it may be cold on the east coast
but on the other side of town it never rains...

Now it may be cold on the east coast
but on the other side of town it never rains...

It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California

Now it may be cold on the east coast
but on the other side of town it never rains...

Now it may be cold on the east coast
but on the other side of town it never rains...

It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California
It never rains in southern California

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Off the Dome..

close your eyes and cover them with your hands tight.

now think with all of your might.

open your eyes and chase away the darkness with your light.

who do you see?

with their hand reaching down.

who do you hear?

with their voice full of love, wisdom and clear sound.

who could it be?

with one look makes your body fill with warmth and your heart pound.

is it her?

is it him?

close your eyes and tightly cover them.

without a thought, open your eyes and grin.

when you see their face and hear their voice again.

these emotions mean your in love, my friend.


Dreams really speak volumes to me..