All over the place..

I always wonder if God looks down on me and thinks that I'm a failure beings that I've done more wrong then right in my 20 years of life. I've went around feeling bad for myself all the time. Not being able to talk to people about my feelings and then when I finally find the man of my dreams I go and mess things up.. With him thinking that everything that he's ever done was wrong when it wasn't.. How can you explain to one how sorry you are for hurting them for so long? from my experience you can't. They don't hear you when they're hurt, all they feel is pain. I wish pain was like a door that I could break through to explain to you how special you are to me, yourself and the world. You taught me things that i didn't know and things that I had no knowledge of. With you it was the little stuff that mattered. Times where I felt like I couldnt go on with my own life and you were there for me. I couldnt sleep without you but on some occasions I had too because of what ever the circumstances were at that time. What im saying is.. You're nothing short of Amazing. Don't sell yourself short, you have to be the one to believe that you are worthy of something great. If while with me you learned nothing just know that I Love You and I've always tried to lift you up and make you happy. I suffer everyday knowing that I was the one who bruised you for life. I dearly cherished the time, heart, soul and effort you put into me. You live in my heart, I continue to breathe because of God and second you. You were my blessing. my everything and still to this day I love you with all of my heart..

Love, Brittany..

Heavenly Father

With you I put all my trust, nothing can keep me from you. Prayer always works. I thank you for everything you've ever given me. You continue to bless me and I promise I won't complain anymore.

Dawn Richard - "BulletProof" (Produced by Anonymous)

The lyrics to this song really spoke to me at a point in my life where i felt like i had dealt with so much BULLSHIT that i couldn't be anything but BULLETPROOF after going thru the worst of the worst. this is for all the survivors out there who keep going after each let down, trial and tribulation...trust me..there's always happiness on the other side of the hill. we just have to see it all the way thru and learn the lesson we were meant to endure thru..

I want a relationship that's not all about sex. I just want to cuddle with you, and be able to tell you how my day was. I want to be able to tell you how happy you make me, send you text while you're right beside me. I want to hold you when you're upset, and kiss your pain away. I just want you all to myslef.

then after that, have sex <3


^^^^^^^^

That's what you give me

Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.

Phill Wade @ Reggie Jamz - Jam Session 19

Too many dudes expect women to have fat asses and not enough of you have Big D*cks...

The toughest part of letting go is realizing the other person already did.

I don't want a perfect relationship. I just want someone who I can act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me.

I aint gon lie I think you're the one, so let's fall asleep wit the moon and I greet you with the sun

A Woman That Knows Her Position Will NEVER Lose Her Place..

"I don't have anything to regret at all in the past, except that I might've unintentionally hurt somebody else or something". - Jimi Hendrix

Say a prayer for me as I'll do for you.

Just finished my poem "Love between LOVERS" and I'm suddenly sad.. Le sigh :( This poem took longer to write just because I had a lot flowing through my head. I'm pretty much stuck at a stand still. What am i to do I ask God? He'll show me the right away.. I'll just continue to pray on it..

Love between LOVERS

His heart is the immovable object
My love is the irresistible force
But what happens when those two meet
I’ll tell you
For about a week we peak
And then after that we become weak
Weak to each others touch
And softened by one another’s kiss
Yet I have never felt more whole than this
When I’m with him my heart doesn’t beat
My eyes don’t set past him
Afraid that some day I’ll pass him
And we won’t speak
So we text at three in the morning
Mourning those moments when we were apart
Know this, his immovable object
Formally known as a heart
Shall some day set upon another?
But what is this
Love between lovers
Never lust
Knowing that not to last long enough for a goodbye kiss
Painting his beauty knowing it not to last long
Singing with symphonies knowing never to match his hearts song
But I shall no longer allow this written love to prolong
I just know it will be a terrible day when this little piece of my heart is gone
These words I say to you
Before bidding you adue
Wishing only for another day after our last
Hoping he doesn’t forget our past.

All over the place dreams/thoughts

I love you. I often lust for you. Thinking and day dreaming of the way that you looked at me.. That smirk you had on your face ^_^ Your body hovering over mine while we both moaned with passion in our eyes.. a part of me felt free, even relieved, all because I loved you. I L is for the way you look at me, O is for the only one I see, V is very very Extra ordinary, E is even more than anyone that you'll adore, tehehe. You get it right?.. Me making love to you while whispering into your ear what I'd like for you to do to me next. You never decline. You've always been the type to take control. I love that. I orgasm ever so gently as you tell me that I'm who you want to spend the rest of your life with. ish like that gets me every time. I clinch my thighs tighter pulling you closer to me, mmm cum for me baby, yes I could be a lil rauncy. You kiss my fore head as if I was your daughter, gosh how I love for you to be my Daddy. Ha You do everything in your power to please me and you exceed my expections. my flow picks up and you take that as a challenge thrusting and pulling, biting and sucking the life out of me.. I say oh no not again but it's to late.. I submit to you yet again. You feel me, you trust me, you love me, you'd tell me you wanted to fuck me.. from time to time.. but it was always love. switching positions

wouldn't you like to know the rest? Shoot me too.. my mind jumped and idk what was really going on I just typed whatever was happening..