From 101 blogs to 28. I went back and deleted most of the blogs that had me feeling bad way back since november. I hated seeing those blogs up where I felt lifeless and worthless. I may me deleting this blog and starting all over. Something totally different. But until then you can find me elsewhere.

Swagg City Radio!

Omg lol, I called in to swagg city radio lol and it was so cool! I'm shaking right now. I was on the radiooooooooooo! Dammit, I'm so ready for my life to take off as a Radio/TV personality! I can just imagine now. Beautiful Brittany the face of Radio/TV! Look out world! I'm coming!

smh

I just don't know what to do anymore. :0(

You're A Jerk!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qv9VKKXwVxU
(I'm not sure why it didnt just show up! )


Womp, womp, womp, womp, womp! Why you trippin' I ain't even do nothin'. I'm a jerk? You ain't never lied, but aye do me a favor call me "JERK" one more time!

If you know me, you know that I love bright clothes! Weird music well correction! "All types of music" and this song has my attention right now. I so like wanna go to cali just to dance with these kids LOL! Ha cause I'ma Jerk! LOL

Check it out tho.

Smooch & Dash

Khloe Kardashian! I <3 her. Shes weird but sexy to me. I kind of understand her life a little by watching the show "Keeping up with the Kardashian's". Shes always been the odd ball out of their family because shes taller than the others and BLAH BLAH BLAH. I felt the same growing up, because I didn't feel as if I was pretty. I was a funny looking little kid and I just started to grow into my looks (shout out to my daddy for helping me with that) LOL. plus I seen the documentary of the Kardashian story, on E! Khole was really close to her father and I believe the other too were closer to their mother. something like that... But basically, I dig her! Her style, her akwardness, her smile is cute and I believe shes just a beautiful human being. :o)! Shes also really smart and she has goals just like myself. A good role model if you ask me. besides her DUI's ha! Btw, I'm thinking of starting a vlog... just of my day to day, things of that nature. I get inspired very easily. Ofcourse I plan on getting a camera, Duh LOL. Because i have money in the bank to do things like that! Nah, lmao I'm broke and the money in the bank is for hard times.

ps. remember smooch & dash! LOL, you Kardashian lovers know of what I'm talking about.

-B

Resortation At Last.

your mouth is a cavern hiding spring
which any tongue discovers and shares
with my frazzled sensibilities.
the honey-ginger baby of my latest dreams,
u spice me
into forgetting the bland heroes
who rumaged my inner-cabinets
not because they were thieves
but because they were hungry.

and just when I thought bareness was my destiny,
here u come
replenishing my juices faster than i can absorb.
and oh,
the way you tend my fires
making my short hair stand on the top of my head
in a salute to love and the ecstacy
of being allowed to be my illustrious self.

You restore(d) me.

cool guotes and quik thoughts

*I close my eye's trying to dream but my mind is open showing me reality.


*I fear no man no beast or monster, I only fear what I've given you.


My favorite Blog of his. February 25th 2009 @ 9:30 PM


& the Funniest was February 18th 2009 @ 4:53 PM

The deepest Blog was February 7th 2009 @ 12:43 AM

And the worst was December 27th 2008 @ 11:07 AM

*I don't just want someone to lust with but I want someone to love for who they are and all there faults and for them to love me the same. Good and the bad, Fun and the sad times. ( Wow, that’s not true because you make people out to be who you want them to be. So you couldn’t possibly love them for there faults. -B )

But December 4th 2008 was the day that made my heart pound the most!

November 18th 2008was the cutest Blog I’ve Ever read! Kinda harsh but the outcome of it made me feel awesome.

November 17th 2008 was when everything was good! Full of fun, love and goofiness.

On November 15th 2008 three Blogs were written and I hated all of those.

Oh Yeah! Lol! November 12th 2008... I read that and laugh for about 5 minutes! I mean Just the whole message made my day. “Love is real“.

November 10th 2008 “I love her lil stupid goofy ass I swear.” MmmHmm
( Times were hard but a smile and a little joke worked back in those days. )

Both Blogs on November 8th 2008 were ugly to me. Not caring is the worst thing in the world.

November 5th 2008! The Birthday Card! And The Day after Obama Won! Yaayyyyyy!
( One of the best days of my life! I mean what is better then Obama being elected?
Plus My card was awesome. I think I cried after reading !)

November 3rd 2008. “Yet Another Day!”
( I mean trying to change a person in the beginning isn’t good. I wont happen over night. Give it time an then complain if nothing has changed. )

November 2nd 2008 was a blah blog for me all three of them.

And November 1st 2008 lol I was happy because you finally started blogging! Yayyyyyyyy.


I mean, this was just an overview of what I felt about most of your blogs. I’m sitting here thinking about everything that has happened in the past 7 months. More BAD then good! Though things happen for a reason. I’ve learned to except whatever plan that GOD has for me. As far as changing for someone else I’ve done it. I’ve always been the person to say I’d never change for nobody but I can honestly say… this change has made me (“Totally Different” But It has made me change a lot of my bad habits and my selfish ways.) I am a better person! hands down! I still can be a complete and totally F up but, doesn’t everybody have there moments. All in all, I think I’ve brought a lot of happy times to your life.

Just a little rant.

That’s all

What I feel for you will NEVER change.

Sincerely B.

I wanted!

I wanted to write somethin good.
I wanted to write somethin deep and symbolic.
No surface thinkin, somethin hard to frolic with.
Somethin that reflects pieces of my intelligence.
Somethin that seems completely relavent.
I wanted it to have pure logic.
I wanted you to need a drink of water to swallow it.
I needed you to understand my prognostication.
I wanted you to read and feel some sort of sensation.
When you read this you were supposed to say "damn, that's hot"
I feel like I'm boiling, but maybe this is not.
I wanted you to feel the poignancy of these words.
I wanted your empathy, like we can't give to birds.
A human can't empathize with a bird about flying.
Like I can't expect you to feel this without trying.

Snap, snap, snap!
Somethin I just wrote, nothing much.
but it was one of the things that came to my mind, so I decided to write on it


-Beautiful b yeahh that's me
;-)

Pain.

I’ll start by saying we’re finished
And like a director
Cut and print
These bed springs are done
Let’s begin at the beginning
The beginning of this show
When your legs opened like the curtains
And your eyes lit up like a stage
I made you take a bow
Shouting bravo
And not in plea of an encore
But in plea of more
Your body moistened just as I knew it would
And I lay my tongue like a sign
Slippery when wet
I allowed your stomach to pace
And your thighs to lock
Yearning for my lip to bite your bottom
Lip that is
Your essence to create beauty
And your juices to insight commotion
But speed has never been ones master
So time not only stands still
It shall lie down for you
Just as you have for me
I undressed your bottom
Just so your top could be teased
Licking your unmentionables just to see your skin appeased
Finally taking off your shirt
Revealing the star of the show
YOU
Rhythms move
Like spoken language
Yet none coming from our mouths
Words were used and some repeated
Many shouted but never regretted
A few hummed and all wanted to be heard
Your nails claw at my back as if a beast has been aroused
My satin sheets are long since gone
And just as your body
My bed sleeps naked
Chocolate and ice
Very nice choice indeed
So I rub this here
And lick that from there
Just as your heart turns bare
You scream in my ear
But I know of the pleasure that lies in the pleased
And the showmanship I have given your audience
Flames boil our sweat
Passion has never been so hot
We burn in this sea of ecstasy
With your voice so horse
And your knees ready to buckle
I hear you
Pain

-B

Kind of like in a writing mood.

I guess I haven't really expressed myself in a way of poetry in a while, but here it goes. I hope you like it guys...

This one is called "You and Me"


I want to be wrapped in your body and consumed by your presence.
I want you to have me, without me needing to be present.
I want your demeanor to speak, and my soul be fluent in the language.
I want you to read a post-it reminder I write, and be able to feel my anguish.
I want to hold your hand, and know to be strong when there's a slight lack in your grip.
I want you to be the comfort for the quiver in my lip.
I want you to smell my voice and know the perfume of every tone.
I want to see you so clearly, I know what face you make on the phone.
I want you to taste my meal and know the flavor of my mood.
I want you to accept the delicacy of my secrets, and receive them without being rude.
I want you to look in my eyes and twenty twenty see my heart.
I want you to never go blind, so we should wear shades from the start.
I want to better every aspect of you, as you better every aspect of me.
I want us to equal two, because when we join together, we would've already been complete.

lol, I try... I believe if I really take my time I can really make a master piece out of my pieces. :) that sounded cool hahaaa.


And another one..... :)


Ive been working on this piece for some time now. Trying to get creative and keep my mind off of my Grandmother and my Mother. It really hasn't been working but I still try to keep moving on, you know "You gotta keep on pushing"... lol But This piece was inspired by my cousin. He loves DC comics and I believe X-Men is a part of DC comics uhh, Yeah! (CORRECTION MARVEL COMICS :) HAHAHA) I choose jean grey. She stands out to me. Kinda reminds me of myself because she's weird and awkward, but yet shes still cool. Ive wanted to dye my hair like hers but nah lol, so here it goes "Jean Grey".


This one is entitled "Jean Grey"


I could be Jean Grey.
But only for a few days.
Out of the year, you know.
Periodical.
Like how we let tears flow.
Can you hear this with your ears though?
Or do you only read with your eyes?
Do you feel with your heart?
It'll lead to your demise.
Maybe you should change your attitude.
Without desperate attempts.
Sanity's so far in latitude.
You'd need mental defense.
I can throw a table across the room.
I can do it with my mind.
I could kill a person coming to attack me from behind.
I could show you so many things, you'd think previously you were blind.
I can pour a glass of wine with my hands behind my back.
I can blur your sight and mind you'd think you had cataracts.
Jean Grey, yeah that's me.
The one who's decent, somewhat normal.
The one you get to see.
Oh but there's someone else.
She lives deep within.
You can look at her wrong and she'll stop your breathin.
She's a class five.
Screw with your existence.
She can threaten your life.
You'll need repentance.
Force you to come clean when she knows you're dirty.
Let you know straight up that you're just not worthy.
She's fresh, she's new.
She's hot. Like fire.
One of the best, that's few.
There's no way to beguile her.
When she speaks, she's blatant.
She's somewhat complacent.
She'll get in your face quick.
She's not a base chick.
Could you tell the difference?
Better yet, have you seen it?
Oh you mean didn't know?
Well now she's the Phoenix.

Hope you liked it! :)


-Beautiful B

Woop Da Dee Doop.

Stanky Leg - GS BOYZ


This is what I'm doing right now. lol
I really dig this.

Other than that, I'm just sitting here listening to this Gibberish song over and over again.
I stole it from twan, hopefully he doesn't mind lol. But my head hurts, and It's 5:42pm now and i haven't showered! -licks tongue out and bites it. I'll shower after this blog. I've been down just about all day. As of now, I'm trying to cheer myself up. "Thinks" I should workout. Yeah after a bath I'm going to work on my stomach and thighs. I'm going to work out to the same song the whole time. I'm not really feeling any upbeat music right now. But I think doing the Stanky leg might work lol. I use to get on my ex all the time about texas music, but I swear I'm all over it now. It took about a year for me to get hip. So I might listen to that. Or maybe I'll listen to my imeem playlist "Which is the BEST!" :). I'm eating a bag of Scooby snacks, umm.. umm.. GOOD! to many of these will have me going.


Soooooo... I thought it would be cool to state some things that you probably didnt know about me, or should I? Hmm... I just might later on. Im going to keep posting in this blog so maybe later some fun facts will show up.

Fun facts.

1. I was born and raised in DC but most people don't think I'm from there.

2. I was a geek in elementary, middle school and some what in high school.

3. I bite my finger nails.

4. Okayyyy so maybe I do have an addictive personality.

5. I get irritated very easily.

6. I'm lactose intolerant, why am I just finding out. BLAH

7. I cry a lot. I've always been that way. my emotional ass.

8. Out of most girls I know, I think I have my head screwed on right for my age.

9. I'm somewhat of a prodigy, I wish I could show it more.

10. I get sad when people don't like me or when people say bad things about me.
(Toughen up -beats chest lol )
I can't please everybody tho

11. When people meet me they think that i smoke weed for some reason. I'm like wth
for the record! I Hate smoke.
(One girl told me I was like super excited or something )

12. I'm a SHOP-A-LOHLIC!!! BETSEY JOHNSON IS MY HOMEY LOL.

13. I dig New Kids on the block (The right Stuff!)

14. I wanted to marry Donnie Wahlberg lol. shush
I was obsessed with the whole new kids on the block crew.

15. I have two first names. and a lot of AKA's.
(Brittany Kristen. Bee, Brit, Beau, LilMama, Krissy, barbie, White girl, Juicy K <-- hate that nick name, Bonqwerla <-- I like that name now it makes me smile, Honey bee and Bee baby. )

16. I love to sing :)
(I hit the right notes sometimes.)

17. Television is Good to me ALL THE TIME!

18. I love the company of a relationship.
(I hate being alone, and I hate starting over.)

19. I'm a picky eater.

20. I pick my nose often. yikes, lol.

21. Music keeps me sane.

22. I play with my toes often :)

Be My Frozen Rose..

Before this winter I never knew your true beauty
A beauty shocking and amazing
Unable to be captured by time yet you’re here in this cold
I stand ready to pick you
Afraid my hands won’t be the warmth you need
A fear that quickly fades
Thirteen rose petals
And I’m ready to play your ice cold game
He loves me
For all the times I stood by his side
For all the ways I let him know it was right to be in love
He loves me not
When it counted I wasn’t there
When he was alone
I allowed him to cast a single shadow
Of all the questions for a woman to answer in her lonesome
This is not one of them
He loves me
Knowing in the coldest winters I’d be his shelter
And in the worst of days my umbrella shields the pain
He loves me not
Because I
Just like so many others
Have been a fool
Standing in time waiting for a tick
Knowing not that seconds pass faster than I can see
Only three petals to go
And I sit thinking…
not
He loves me not
So who could he love?
Does my heart not appease the heavens?
Does my smile and laughter not make him feel welcome?
Last petal
He loves me
And aside from apparent doubt
I knew he did
And I love him
In this coldest of days
In the darkest of nights
In the loneliest of times
In this February of '09
Be my frozen rose
Be my valentine.


Peace and Blessings...

Brittany Kristen S M.

Browsing...

Oh wow, that blog hurt so bad!
-runs and cries.

I did try to get there wtf.
You feel like I wasted your time.
I didn't! I was already unsure if i could get there.
I was already on the train, so it wouldn't have been a problem for me to come.
Not knowing your number by heart, what was i suppose to do.
Go home without my cell phone, get my computer, look for your number, then go to find my cell phone?
No, so i did what anybody would have done.
Yes, I retraced my steps. Found my cell phone, then went home.
You keep saying how old you are. I know.
You feel like your entertaining a child. Well, I'm no child!
That's for damn sure! I make mistakes and piss you off all in one!
I never mean too. I don't.
A child would find it funny, knowing how they could get under someones skin.
But I don't! I try to keep you happy, even tho things are rocky.
You fail to realized, when your stressed, i am too.
Because, I am usually the cause of it.
Yeah, okay I am.
You say things go from bad to worse, well you come to me then.
you won't. but whatever.
Ugh. smh, why me. I've been nothing but good to this guy.

'09 has to be a better year.

it's crazy how i write a beautiful poem, then at the end you guys see this bullshit writing.
my fault, i had to express how i fault.

Halo.

This song makes so much since right now in my life.
This is for you baby. (I Love You, with all of my heart.)


Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I've got my angel now

(Bridge:)
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

(Chorus:)
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see you halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over you face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
(x2)

(Verse 2:)
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest nights
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like fallin'
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

(Bridge)

(Chorus)

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
(x2)

Halo, halo oohhhh...

(Chorus)

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo....

this is the perfect song
Beyonce' is the truth!

http://www.imeem.com/beyonce/music/hm8BBmR6/beyonc_halo/

-peace & blessings.
Bonqwerla
lol.

Auditorium love

Auditorium love

The bell rings
You take my notebooks to the floor
I put sentences on your waste
Just to eat my words
You say faster and slower
So I make those your favorite verbs
Grammar goes out the window
Because right now moans become dialect
Then you fall weak
Weak like I made your heart dilate
And we come right on time
Passion is never late
I’m so elated
Your kisses are a favorite
So elated to see your patient
Since I kept you waiting
Waiting for a whisper
I tickle your fancy like a tongue or a whisker
But you don’t murmur
Screams come from the back row
I finally made you cum from the back row
Passion fills the air
Round three begins in what is to be a crowded room
Ding! ding!
Both fighters go to a corner
The bell rings
Class is over
Yet we don’t hear its sounds
Because lovers silence drowns
It fills the room
Just as the room is filled
Students rush in
Eyes watch
Yet we never stop
Stopping only when they make us
The principal comes
And a principle comes to mind
Why finish now what we can finish for 45 days
Suspension becomes our cover
The shard protecting our lust
But in 45 days we’ll be back in the auditorium
One again

ps. i havent wrote a poem in a long time so i hope you like it

peace & blessings
-bee

Obama!

Obama For You're Mother Fucking Mama!
:)
oh and im finally 18